Date: 12th March 2021
Precious girl, how I long to hold you in my arms. My arms ache for you. I think about you so often and wish so badly I could turn back time.
I would do things so differently. I was afraid, honey. So afraid. Please forgive me, baby. Forgive me for not giving you the life you deserved. God had a plan for you, Hope, and I took that from you. I can’t wait until I get to meet you in heaven one day. Then I will finally know if you have my intelligence or your daddy’s humour . And I will see your smile and hear your laugh. I can’t wait!
I will hold you so close. I think the angels will have to pry my arms from you that day! I promise to be the mom you needed. I will love your future siblings with the love I wish I would have given you. I will tell them about you so they don’t make the same mistake I did. And I will tell other women who are afraid and confused, just like I was. Your death won’t be in vain, Hope, I promise.
Every year I will honor you but celebrating you on the day you should have been born. You will never be forgotten – Never! Until I hold you in my arms, I will hold you in my heart. Love, Momma