28 March 2008 | New Zealand |
A button to remember a time that I would like to sometimes forget, or wonder at how life would have turned out if I didn’t go through with the abortion.
At times I regret not being strong even to say, "no, I am having this baby." There have been times when I thought that I have gotten over the emotions only to have something happen to bring the memories and hurt back.
It has not made our relationship any easier as the years have gone on. When my daughter first got pregnant, I thought I might have lost the plot, so strong that the emotions that were felt, but with God I got through. I often feel close to my grandson before he was 'born' and I was able to have a relationship with him.